this is true (=

another nice song. seee, i'm so nice! i woke up at 2 yesterday! 2 PM. can you imagine? it was a nice long sleep until my wifey called. hahaha.

the throat's getting worst. really. although it's not that bad yet. it sounded like the day i went to sirhan's house for lunch. haha. i hope it gets better. (=

it's been said that everyone you met and are going to meet are all being planned. it's predestined. so.. all the heart breakers, lovers, soul mate, wives and husbands, friends, enemies and aquaintances are all planned. you can't choose them at all.

isn't that much better? at least you won't have headaches on who to choose and what nots. it's either you forsake or you keep. simple. simple.

at times, i don't understand myself. i think i care too much on how people think of me. im actually willing to do stuffs that are redundant to me but pleases them. of course not till that EXTENT. you know. i don't understand why though. and i thought people say 'you understand yourself the most.' so, where is this understanding i should have with my emotions and body? i wonder.

whenever i think about some stuffs in the past, i always find a strange combination of sadness and joy. some times, i wish i could remove the sadness, but i felt that if i were to remove the sadness, the joy wouldn't be the same anymore. worst, the joy would be gone. so i take the memories as they come by, accepting both good and bad because thats what makes up life. (= right? i hope i am.

because i hope, now as i enter a different stage of my life, i will be happy. i don't want to plaster a fake smile across my face each day when i wake up. that sucks.

well, let's not demand. life's like this. if it's all smooth sailing, it's way boring.

RIGHT?

i miss ivor lah! (=

Why do I feel so alone and yet Im surrounded by people?